Makes the water clear

Yes, I'm too scared to see what will happen in future
And I'm too sad to see what happened in the past

But really, am I that awful?
To think out of blue and said 'Something is going wrong'
and see those beautiful pictures and said 'Those are bad memories'

I'm a monster for myself.
I'm a murderer for myself.
I'm a poison for myself.
I'm a pathetic person!

THE WORST PERSON I'VE EVER SEEN??
MIRROR, MIRROR ON THE WALL..
WHO'S THE CRAZIEST OF THEM ALL?

You can't see future in a negative way.
You can't conclude your experience by skipping the best moments.

The fact is somehow, relative.
Between your logic and your own view.
Because you are nothing but one of the creatures that walk in this mortal lands.
You and I know nothing but what have we known.



Do you know what happen to the Agents?
Do you wanna know?
I know a little.


As I walked after stabbing my friends' back, thinking that I was killing the things that might hurt them in the future
And how hard I was teaching my own blood relatives, screaming and yelling
All that just to left the fact how painful I am now.
I'm hurting people by hurting myself.
My mother is right, I'm always have a pity for myself.
Those tears that said 'please see me now cause I'm hurting'
or maybe they said 'leave me alone, you don't know how long I've been held in those eyes!'



You see, it's a world that once you see, it has a lot of views
War of thoughts in everywhere

And I am now, writing how people who read this note-
-might think I have done a right thing or I have done a wrong thing.
By destroying the Agents.
I could see how beautiful the memories that Agents have been had when they were together.
Even one by one a member signed out from the circle, some of them still stay together.
Mamoru Fuyuma felt those beautiful moments, hope maybe one day when they are separated away, they will remember how close they are just by seeing name of 'The Agents', or laugh how silly and funny they used to be.


But shall we see the others' view?
We don't know what Kosaka Ryu thought about it, or what was Ryuuji Kyo thinking.
How about Mamoru Haruma's?
Do you want to know what I've seen?
There was a little poison that grow bigger in that circle.
The members didn't realize how poison ivy have been planted accidental and grow.
But the outer members saw that.
Who is that the outer member??
Then there he was.
Or I was.
Cutting that poison ivy by torn the unfinished story and crack the glass that would never cleaned
The glass shattered and hurt the members one by one : that's what Fuyuma see.
As he knew one of the shatters hurt him too.

As people trying to leave and change, Fuyuma still searching the culprit.
What happened?
Who did that?
Why was that happening?
How that could be?

Kosaka Ryu told me that "You can't see what in the water if the water is still turbid."
What's that anyway?
Confusing, right?

I just kept this as a stupid hint
or a secret that have been haunting me for a year.

Yet it's not a secret anymore since I'm telling you now.
Fuyuma just too scared that his friends will hate him that Haruma screw Fuyuma's promise.
But I know this is not a bad decision.
I will fix the glass and rewrite the story, even if the glass is not as beauty as it was, and even if the story is not as interesting as it was.


You could see the different situation in the beginning of this note and the end of this note.
It's to show you how difficult it was to tell people a hidden secret
But it gives a relief in the 'fin'



By: Mamoru Haruma

How should I?

Lately I'm thinking how I'm very blessed to be born.
ヽ(´ー`)人(´∇｀)人(`Д´)ノ
Oh thank God!!
To see such a beautiful world
and to earn the tittle of 'leader' in this earth.
God made me born and grow
And made me learn
how unique this world can be

Haruma explain to me how this world is so cruel,
but yet then he said 'but the truth is, human is the suspect.'
^( '-' )^
I was confused, and asked him 'What do you mean?'
'First time you said that this world is cruel, and then you said humain is the suspect.'
Haruma then smile and said 'Ah, like I though you would not understand my words.'
'World is cruel, but the truth suspect is human.'
'The one who is cruel is human.'
'Human do bad things to the environment..'
'They cut the trees, dig the mountain, and throw trash to water..'
'But some of them don't fix the damaged that they have made.'
'Human do bad things to the other creatures...'
'They hurt animals because of their ego..'
'Some of people like to show how strong they are by attacking the other who is weak.'
'They lie and trick their own brothers and sisters, they killed them..'
'Just for wealth, thrones, politics,.. and then of course, because of their own ego.'
'The result of their selfishness, the world become cruel to them.'
'Even they said that world is cruel..'
'But the truth is that they are cruel to them self.'
(Ⓘ.Ⓘ) as it was scaring me, Haruma giggled and said 'Now seeing your face becoming blue. you must be think that hard.'
I was so scared and said 'I'm human and... am I that bad??'
Before left, Haruma said 'Do you think so?'
'Well it's good for you to think that you are bad.'
'People who think they are not good usually can see their own negative traits.'
'If you don't want to be judged to be a bad person, then do good things.'
'If you have done a bad thing, then fix it.'
'Try to think of other people, not only ourselves.'
'Remember that we don't live alone, we do have needs but other people have their own needs too.'
'Just be a better person for yourself and others.'

How complicated Haruma thinks is! (◑.◑)
But from that, I learn how I should be a better person to environtment, to other creatures...
by become a leader for myself, and leading my self for not becoming a selfish person!! ᕙ(`▿´)ᕗ


by the way, the next writer is Mamoru Haruma \----------(≧◡≦)
ciao everyone! (っ◕‿◕)っ ♥