Makes the water clear

Yes, I'm too scared to see what will happen in future
And I'm too sad to see what happened in the past

But really, am I that awful?
To think out of blue and said 'Something is going wrong'
and see those beautiful pictures and said 'Those are bad memories'

I'm a monster for myself.
I'm a murderer for myself.
I'm a poison for myself.
I'm a pathetic person!

THE WORST PERSON I'VE EVER SEEN??
MIRROR, MIRROR ON THE WALL..
WHO'S THE CRAZIEST OF THEM ALL?

You can't see future in a negative way.
You can't conclude your experience by skipping the best moments.

The fact is somehow, relative.
Between your logic and your own view.
Because you are nothing but one of the creatures that walk in this mortal lands.
You and I know nothing but what have we known.



Do you know what happen to the Agents?
Do you wanna know?
I know a little.


As I walked after stabbing my friends' back, thinking that I was killing the things that might hurt them in the future
And how hard I was teaching my own blood relatives, screaming and yelling
All that just to left the fact how painful I am now.
I'm hurting people by hurting myself.
My mother is right, I'm always have a pity for myself.
Those tears that said 'please see me now cause I'm hurting'
or maybe they said 'leave me alone, you don't know how long I've been held in those eyes!'



You see, it's a world that once you see, it has a lot of views
War of thoughts in everywhere

And I am now, writing how people who read this note-
-might think I have done a right thing or I have done a wrong thing.
By destroying the Agents.
I could see how beautiful the memories that Agents have been had when they were together.
Even one by one a member signed out from the circle, some of them still stay together.
Mamoru Fuyuma felt those beautiful moments, hope maybe one day when they are separated away, they will remember how close they are just by seeing name of 'The Agents', or laugh how silly and funny they used to be.


But shall we see the others' view?
We don't know what Kosaka Ryu thought about it, or what was Ryuuji Kyo thinking.
How about Mamoru Haruma's?
Do you want to know what I've seen?
There was a little poison that grow bigger in that circle.
The members didn't realize how poison ivy have been planted accidental and grow.
But the outer members saw that.
Who is that the outer member??
Then there he was.
Or I was.
Cutting that poison ivy by torn the unfinished story and crack the glass that would never cleaned
The glass shattered and hurt the members one by one : that's what Fuyuma see.
As he knew one of the shatters hurt him too.

As people trying to leave and change, Fuyuma still searching the culprit.
What happened?
Who did that?
Why was that happening?
How that could be?

Kosaka Ryu told me that "You can't see what in the water if the water is still turbid."
What's that anyway?
Confusing, right?

I just kept this as a stupid hint
or a secret that have been haunting me for a year.

Yet it's not a secret anymore since I'm telling you now.
Fuyuma just too scared that his friends will hate him that Haruma screw Fuyuma's promise.
But I know this is not a bad decision.
I will fix the glass and rewrite the story, even if the glass is not as beauty as it was, and even if the story is not as interesting as it was.


You could see the different situation in the beginning of this note and the end of this note.
It's to show you how difficult it was to tell people a hidden secret
But it gives a relief in the 'fin'



By: Mamoru Haruma

How should I?

Lately I'm thinking how I'm very blessed to be born.
ヽ(´ー`)人(´∇｀)人(`Д´)ノ
Oh thank God!!
To see such a beautiful world
and to earn the tittle of 'leader' in this earth.
God made me born and grow
And made me learn
how unique this world can be

Haruma explain to me how this world is so cruel,
but yet then he said 'but the truth is, human is the suspect.'
^( '-' )^
I was confused, and asked him 'What do you mean?'
'First time you said that this world is cruel, and then you said humain is the suspect.'
Haruma then smile and said 'Ah, like I though you would not understand my words.'
'World is cruel, but the truth suspect is human.'
'The one who is cruel is human.'
'Human do bad things to the environment..'
'They cut the trees, dig the mountain, and throw trash to water..'
'But some of them don't fix the damaged that they have made.'
'Human do bad things to the other creatures...'
'They hurt animals because of their ego..'
'Some of people like to show how strong they are by attacking the other who is weak.'
'They lie and trick their own brothers and sisters, they killed them..'
'Just for wealth, thrones, politics,.. and then of course, because of their own ego.'
'The result of their selfishness, the world become cruel to them.'
'Even they said that world is cruel..'
'But the truth is that they are cruel to them self.'
(Ⓘ.Ⓘ) as it was scaring me, Haruma giggled and said 'Now seeing your face becoming blue. you must be think that hard.'
I was so scared and said 'I'm human and... am I that bad??'
Before left, Haruma said 'Do you think so?'
'Well it's good for you to think that you are bad.'
'People who think they are not good usually can see their own negative traits.'
'If you don't want to be judged to be a bad person, then do good things.'
'If you have done a bad thing, then fix it.'
'Try to think of other people, not only ourselves.'
'Remember that we don't live alone, we do have needs but other people have their own needs too.'
'Just be a better person for yourself and others.'

How complicated Haruma thinks is! (◑.◑)
But from that, I learn how I should be a better person to environtment, to other creatures...
by become a leader for myself, and leading my self for not becoming a selfish person!! ᕙ(`▿´)ᕗ


by the way, the next writer is Mamoru Haruma \----------(≧◡≦)
ciao everyone! (っ◕‿◕)っ ♥

It's hurt

One day, I was praying to God
Seeking for His mercy
And I was crying

Sometimes people can be selfish
And I am a selfish person too,
But when I choose to care to others while people still care about themself
Who will hurt himself then?

I was frustated by the situations that keep pushing me
Deep in my heart, I knew.. God would not give me problems which I couldn't handle
So I though what I have to make it through is patience and belief..

Fuyuma knows that I'm a complicated thinker. Just add a little oil in my formula water that could make me sad... Or angry
Kokoru said that trait of mine is good. It means I'm a 'perfectionist' person.
But later, the perfectionist person become frustated because of wanting everything perfect
Laying a hope to a person or a thing is a frustating idea.

By the way, the next writer is Mamoru Fuyuma.
I'll be back later

By: Mamoru Haruma

Waiting

It was fast to see how people can grow up so soon
And time keep moving while I'm waiting
I know time won't wait for me, it should be I'm the one who waited the time
Which means... Am I waiting a wrong person?
I keep blaming myself for being to weak.
I'm weak.
Why can't I be a strong person?
If only I'm strong enough to struggle 'a little bit more'. .

Somehow I'm envy with Fuyuma who keep happy with all his traits (including his clumsiness).
And I'm envy how Nokoru's positive thinking can make him keep moving forward
While I'm stopping to wait..
Kokoru told me that he was sad to see how something went wrong, (wrong means not as what he was calculated). He said that everything in the world change, it becomes bad or good, it keeps change.
A happy boy came across us and cut our conversation and said, "Everything change, but God is not change. God not change and will never change!"
Then he left with happiness scent around him. Kokoru then smiled and left.
I believe he agreed with that boy, but he just didn't like how that boy acted since that boy somehow looked like Nokoru eventhough he wasn't him.

Kokoru is the type of person who wait for the time. He likes to calculated and rearrange schedule, and his strategy for days quite accurate. When his strategy fails, he examined what his mistakes are. He and Nokoru are determind person.
It's just that Kokoru doesn't have some good traits which Nokoru has.

......
I'm keep waiting but he doesn't come.
Maybe I should go to do other things
And wait for him in another day


Maybe I should learn to wait the time.




By: Mamoru Haruma

still trying to write post with English language. AWARE OF THE BAD VOCABULARY! ^_^

Excited to be in the new visual novel :D
before we got to be in the new novel, I have chatted with Kokoru and Haruma :D

here's our chat history:
me: kita akan masuk ke novel ASDH boys :D
Kokoru: hah?
Haruma: kami juga?
me: eh? Kalian juga?
Kokoru: -_-
Haruma: cek dulu siapa saja yang masuk..
me: ok!
*aku segera mencari jadwal tampil dan kembali ke percakapan*
me: ini dia datanya!
Haruma: kirim via email saja.
*mengirim file*
Kokoru: aku sudah muak, aku lelah. Aku tidak mau ikut lagi.
me: eh?! Jangan! :D
Haruma: Fuyuma....
me:apa?
Haruma: kau salah kirim file.
Kokoru: aku pergi. Ayo Haru.
*Kokoru dan Haruma pergi*
me: tunggu!!!!! :D



and that's our last history. ^_^ after Ren knew this conv, he said that if he were there, he would explain to Kokoru that I posted wrong emoticon ^_~
maybe next time I will post a picture than post a phrases(?) ^_^ #don'ttrythisathome,ithasabadvocabulary ^_~



see ya ^_^
Regards, Mamoru Fuyuma

next post will be posted by Mamoru Haruma ^_^

The unpublished visual novels

Long time no seee everybody! ^_^)/

it's me, Mamoru Fuyuma or should I call myself, Atson ^_^?
*Ren and manajer nowadays callling me Aston (Kutcher?? ^_^)



it's been a long time The agents is die, during this period-since Lupin betray me!^_^)?
Oh how could is he??? ^_Q #wrongemotion

Here's the explanation why The agents and Black agents die, regarding Lupin's existence

I wish I could explain all of this in this post, but the time keeps tick tock'in
and the writer (AKN )said the reasons are::::


Lupin's role in The Agents:
He plays as Kosaka Ryu, the 'Lupin' for The Agents.
1. Kosaka Ryu was the one who connect Immonoyama Nokoru (Holmes) and Midori Usami (Akechi)
2. He the one who had an idea of making Natsuki Nadeshiko joining their group(?) to facing Hikaru Ren, later Nadeshiko will making the group, The Agents and becoming its manajer.
3. He was the paparazzi boy. The person who always start another hot issues is.... Wait, what am I talking about?

Lupin's role in The Black Agents:

Kosaka Ryu has a brother whose name is Kosaka Reo.

Reo is the 'Lupin' for the Black Agents.

1. Reo use Leo as his new identity (wait, this is not important

)
2. 4 y o Reo saved Natsuki Nagihiko from some bad man <read: bad man not BATMAN> ^_~
3. Reo the second influence why Kokoru build The Black Agents
4. Reo was making himself sure that Himawarik join the Black Agents
5. Reo saved Kokoru from falling to the lady in red <if Kokoru fell to that woman, the Black Agents was failed just before the visual novel started.>

the message from the writer:
That's the reasons Q_Q now you see how important his role, don't cha?

I think I will made a summary of The Black Agents for some people who wants to make this to be a novel

anyone who interested just called me or pm me in Facebook :3 "

and here's a message from Kokoru:

"I don't think children who are under 17 years old could understand me."

please, I'm trying speak in English! ^_^)/ *Ren said he is worried if I wrote a strong(?) and false(?) totally wrong English word that could make the readers mistaken(?) translating my word* #don't tell him I'm writing in English ^_^)/
see ya now! ^_^)

regards, Mamoru Fuyuma

by the way, where is my pizza?

Just an ordinary post

Zaman sekarang, bisa kita rasakan.....