It's hurt

One day, I was praying to God
Seeking for His mercy
And I was crying

Sometimes people can be selfish
And I am a selfish person too,
But when I choose to care to others while people still care about themself
Who will hurt himself then?

I was frustated by the situations that keep pushing me
Deep in my heart, I knew.. God would not give me problems which I couldn't handle
So I though what I have to make it through is patience and belief..

Fuyuma knows that I'm a complicated thinker. Just add a little oil in my formula water that could make me sad... Or angry
Kokoru said that trait of mine is good. It means I'm a 'perfectionist' person.
But later, the perfectionist person become frustated because of wanting everything perfect
Laying a hope to a person or a thing is a frustating idea.

By the way, the next writer is Mamoru Fuyuma.
I'll be back later

By: Mamoru Haruma

Waiting

It was fast to see how people can grow up so soon
And time keep moving while I'm waiting
I know time won't wait for me, it should be I'm the one who waited the time
Which means... Am I waiting a wrong person?
I keep blaming myself for being to weak.
I'm weak.
Why can't I be a strong person?
If only I'm strong enough to struggle 'a little bit more'. .

Somehow I'm envy with Fuyuma who keep happy with all his traits (including his clumsiness).
And I'm envy how Nokoru's positive thinking can make him keep moving forward
While I'm stopping to wait..
Kokoru told me that he was sad to see how something went wrong, (wrong means not as what he was calculated). He said that everything in the world change, it becomes bad or good, it keeps change.
A happy boy came across us and cut our conversation and said, "Everything change, but God is not change. God not change and will never change!"
Then he left with happiness scent around him. Kokoru then smiled and left.
I believe he agreed with that boy, but he just didn't like how that boy acted since that boy somehow looked like Nokoru eventhough he wasn't him.

Kokoru is the type of person who wait for the time. He likes to calculated and rearrange schedule, and his strategy for days quite accurate. When his strategy fails, he examined what his mistakes are. He and Nokoru are determind person.
It's just that Kokoru doesn't have some good traits which Nokoru has.

......
I'm keep waiting but he doesn't come.
Maybe I should go to do other things
And wait for him in another day


Maybe I should learn to wait the time.




By: Mamoru Haruma