Waiting

It was fast to see how people can grow up so soon
And time keep moving while I'm waiting
I know time won't wait for me, it should be I'm the one who waited the time
Which means... Am I waiting a wrong person?
I keep blaming myself for being to weak.
I'm weak.
Why can't I be a strong person?
If only I'm strong enough to struggle 'a little bit more'. .

Somehow I'm envy with Fuyuma who keep happy with all his traits (including his clumsiness).
And I'm envy how Nokoru's positive thinking can make him keep moving forward
While I'm stopping to wait..
Kokoru told me that he was sad to see how something went wrong, (wrong means not as what he was calculated). He said that everything in the world change, it becomes bad or good, it keeps change.
A happy boy came across us and cut our conversation and said, "Everything change, but God is not change. God not change and will never change!"
Then he left with happiness scent around him. Kokoru then smiled and left.
I believe he agreed with that boy, but he just didn't like how that boy acted since that boy somehow looked like Nokoru eventhough he wasn't him.

Kokoru is the type of person who wait for the time. He likes to calculated and rearrange schedule, and his strategy for days quite accurate. When his strategy fails, he examined what his mistakes are. He and Nokoru are determind person.
It's just that Kokoru doesn't have some good traits which Nokoru has.

......
I'm keep waiting but he doesn't come.
Maybe I should go to do other things
And wait for him in another day


Maybe I should learn to wait the time.




By: Mamoru Haruma